Heaven is a Chemical

Existence

Crippled by fear of not knowing why
Not know why is tomorrow
Squeezing your eyes so tight
Hoping to kill the light
Kill the light and lessen the pain of why
Kill the light
The only way out is through
Kill the light
close you eyes and
Kill the light

Dimming daze, a seasoned road
Sun on my face felt no more
Like waking from a bad dream
Fall into my fears embrace

A rival
Of my mind
Drowning
Who I am
Deeper
It’s pulling
Buried
Who I was

Feels like I am split in two
Inner voices fight a duel
Pulled both ways within my brain
Which one I am will wax and wane

A rival
Of my mind
Drowning
Who I am
Deeper
It’s pulling
Buried
Who I was

Depths that we dwell
Losing line of sight in my mind
Of all of these traits
That made me a being that I liked
Watched as they slip
From the grip that I thought I had
On who I was

Distance between
Who I am and who I want to be
a chasm in my head that I can’t cross
A better side forever lost

Dimming daze
Sun on my face
A bad dream
Fears embrace

Depths that we dwell
Losing line of sight in my mind
Of all of these traits
That made me a being that I liked
Watched as they slip
From the grip that I thought I had
On who I was

This gift, a prize, at first we once thought
Power, wealth, and gift of sight
Promises of rank and stature
All the things that make one great
Gift of Wisdom lost to ages
But now for us it's no use
Blinded by the depths of our hearts
Lost in mind and fade from view

This lust, this need is driving us forth
Left not thought and no control
This force, this pull, we gravitate to
Towards power that’s not our own
Navigate the lands endlessly
Never ending call we heed
For love of power left us all here
His bidding for eternity

Not by the hand of man shall we fall
Cursed Nine in shadow still
Drawn in by the power he gave
No thought beyond all we craved
Soul now lost within the darkness
Deeper than man can say
Now enslaved as our remittance
To the One until his final day

Seeds
Deep within us the shade can sow
Heed my words
Greed
Can carry more than just its weight in gold
Penance to be served

Served
To be served
Served

Seeds
Deep within us the shade can sow
Heed my words
Greed
Can carry more than just its weight in gold
Penance to be served

Served
To be served
Served

A broken shell when we met
A shattered world on the mend
A smile shedding light on
Everything it felt right but
The timing it was all wrong
And the waiting it felt so long
Youth gave me the time to lend
And I would do it all again

The world has a way
The world has a way of saying

This has to be
This has to end up this way
Testing our fate
Laughing in destiny’s face

Took you into my world
Protect you all that I could
Gave you all that I thought you’d want
The glow you gave was payment enough
The guard I had up is gone
I was shut off far too long
Heart on my wrist and not my sleeve
But for you I’d do it all again

The world has a way
The world has a way of laughing

This has to be
This has to end up this way
Testing our fate
Laughing in destiny’s face
Is this the place,
Place that you’re longing to stay
Just standing there
Standing with nothing to say

Time has
Robbed us of what we know
Made us think that we are fractured
These changes shouldn’t break us
When we are...

Holding forever and always in our hands

Look at where we have been
I don’t know where it will end
The light in your eyes has dimmed a bit
Dolefully I reminisce
Does it grow more each day
Or that something you just say
But no matter what tomorrow brings
For you, I’d do it all again

The world’s in my way
It won’t stop me from trying

This has to be
This has to end up this way
Testing our fate
Laughing in destiny’s face
Is this the place
Place that you’re longing to stay
Just standing here
Waiting for what you might say

A simple Oath spoken
By me and my new brethren
A valiant stance of what we believe
True or not, no one can take that away

Take to the battlefield
A euphemistic sword and shield
Losing focus through the sound
Of those who have fallen all around

Brothers beside me
Side by side in this war of ideals
Will they remember what we gave
To what we thought made their dreams real

The agony we felt
One by one as we each fell
Filling up these holes with the ones
Who gave their lives so we could go home

Now our service done
I cannot tell you who had won
All the physical wounds will heal
But I don’t think I left that field

Brothers beside me
Side by side in this war of ideals
Will they remember what we gave
To what we thought made their dreams real
Brothers beside me
Side by side in this war of ideals
Was this the dream we fought to save
Our lives for yours was always the deal

Fighting off our demons, domestic or foreign
Standing our ground for freedom on home soil

Brothers beside me
Side by side in this war of ideals
Will they remember what we gave
To what we thought made their dreams real
Brothers beside me
Side by side in this war of ideals
Was this the dream we fought to save
Our lives for yours was always the deal

Will they remember

We all get a lifetime
One shot to make it ours
You may not know where a path leads
A gilded cage or view by the sea

This life

There comes a time or another
Take a leap of faith
The voice inside
Can’t always know
Which risks are worth all the trouble
Come what ever may
Take a shot
Say Yes to Rome

Decisions taken lightly
Opportunities now all a dream
Doors closed forever and never seen
Life will pass you by with no reprieve

This life

There comes a time or another
Take a leap of faith
The voice inside
Can’t always know
Which risks are worth all the trouble
Come what ever may
Take a shot
Say Yes to Rome

Ungiven kiss
Lands never seen
What’s never known
Say yes to Rome

Events passed burned in your mind
What might have been now left behind

This life is it

There comes a time or another
Take a leap of faith
The voice inside
Can’t always know
Which risks are worth all the trouble
Come what ever may
Take a shot
Say Yes to Rome
There comes a time or another
Take a leap of faith
The voice inside
Can’t always know
Which risks are worth all the trouble
Come what ever may
Take a shot
Say Yes to Rome

Ungiven kiss
Lands never seen
What’s never known
Say yes to Rome

But with time
What comes after time?
When our eyes are shut
When all the Universe is gone
Is it God?
Or is it over?

Let it all fall like rain
Watch the storm wash it all away
Tear it all down
It’s the only way to build up something else

Let it all fall like rain
Winds of change carry it all away
Burn it all down
From the ashes a better world to come
Let it all break
Pressure built up was more than it could take

Rot within the system
Withering away
A Voice is crying out
Beckoning for change
Bore into its center
In hopes the old decays
Will Karma find a way?
Will justice have its day?

Pulling down from its foundation
Burning it from its core
Somethings are meant to precurse
Something that is so much more

Tear it all down
It’s the only way to build up something else
Burn it all down
From the ashes a better world to come

Rot within the system
Withering away
A Voice is crying out
Beckoning for change
Bore into its center
In hopes the old decays
Will Karma find a way?
Will justice have its day?

Pulling down from its foundation
Burning it from its core
Somethings are meant to precurse
Something that is so much more

Feel it growing
From Deep down within
Embrace what may come
Careful of the descent

Reaching out for something
You don’t even understand
Waking up on the inside
With no master plan

This feeling in your bones
Drawing you to a place unknown
A destiny that is yet to be seen

To be seen

Fear
Leads the mind astray
Down
A path of disarray
Fear
Leading us away
From
A life we could have made

Finding hope in
Everything
Reach down within
Trust and faith in
All the things that bind us
It gives us strength

These tired lies you've justified
Say goodbye, welcome your new mind

Feel it growing
Careful of the descent

Finding hope in
Everything
Reach down within
Trust and faith in
All the things that bind us
It gives us strength

The plain
That lay
Before me
I’ve lost the way
I’ve no direction
Shine on which path to take now

Failed to light this fire
From within my soul
I have fallen
I’ve fallen

Proceed
March on
Vague
Search for
A sign to follow
A lead to rely on
Help me keep my grip and hang on

Failed to light this fire
From within my soul
I have fallen

Star give me guidance
Without a path, I’m dying
Can’t you see I’m trying
Reach out and show me a sign
Throw me a line
I’m running out of time

A plea
Lost my way
Look to the sky
I need a Ursae Minoris for daily strife
Failed
To keep it together
Or light this fire

Star give me guidance
Without a path, I’m dying
Can’t you see I’m trying
Reach out and show me a sign
Throw me a fucking line
I’m out of time

Secrets left on lips
When your last breathe draws
If today marked your end
What was it all for?

Why
Do we care what is right?
Will
It affect beyond this life?
Fear
Not knowing eats me alive

Life
Not knowing eats me alive
Not knowing eats me alive

Answers in demand
For fear of what’s in store
No reveals made
As we knock on Death’s door

Did
They fill our heads with lies
About
What’s to come when we die
Was
It even worth what we tried

Death
Was it even worth what we tried
Was it even worth what we tried

Is there light
Or will it all fade out to black
When you’re gone
Can you say
You made the most of this gift

Demand answers
None were given
Please tell me

Is there light
Or will it all fade out to black
When you’re gone
Can you say
You made the most of this life
Given
By divine light
Or stardust
Can you say
You made the most of this gift

Denying the problem
Not asking for help
Going in circles
What Is this? Your life?
Damage is building
From hiding the pain
Refuse to unburden
And shoulder the weight

Despise your mind
For all its pride

We pretend
Nothing hurts til there’s no one left to
Heal this pain
We just eat our own tails
In lethal cycles

Playing the savior
But not for yourself
Give all to others
You’re kept on the shelf
Drained of your life force
To make others shine
You don’t speak a word
When your light starts to die

Despise your mind
For all its pride

We pretend
Nothing hurts til there’s no one left to
Heal this pain
We just eat our own tails
In lethal cycles

Some too proud to try
Something they may find
Numbs the pain that could divide
Them from what keeps hope alive

We pretend nothing hurts til there’s no one left

We pretend
Nothing hurts til there’s no one left to
Heal this pain
We just eat our own tails
In lethal cycles
We pretend
Nothing hurts til there’s no one left to help
Heal this pain
We just eat our own tails
In lethal cycles

Feels like being born again
Yet as if you’ve been here before

Inside
Something feels amiss
Yet so familiar to you
As if from a dream you forgot
But has remained with you for all of this time

There are days
When you feel like you’ve lived this before
It’s like something's trying to break through to you

Heaven is a chemical, a drug to ease it all
Softening the fall, a crutch to lean on
Heaven is a chemical, a filter before the oblivion to
Come as we waste away in a cycle of decay

Leaving you with the Shadow of the truth

Sight, its haze
Your brain
it starts to flood
While you lay
On the floor
As your life
It escapes you

Heaven’s just a chemical repeats your parable
Unfolding like a tale that you have read before

Heaven is a chemical, a drug to ease it all
Softening the fall, a crutch to lean on
Heaven is a chemical, a filter before the oblivion to
Come as we waste away in a cycle of decay

What if you're already dead?
Death is at the door
And you're in a padded prison of your Mind's own chemical construction

What would you say to that?

To know you already lived tomorrow
That you were just wandering a memory until lights out

To know that the closest you'll ever get to what you perceived God might be is the realization that heaven is a chemical